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Grabe. Uso pa ang A(H1N1). Natakot pa ako na mawalan ng Exchange Program. At lumipas lang ang panahon na nakuha ko ang gusto ko.

Sobrang nakakapagod ang third year. Nagpapasalamat na rin ako kasi sa kabila nung mga hirap na yun, ang dami kong natutunan. Natutunan ko ang Lewis Structure. Naranasan kong mawalan ng klase at magliwaliw sa halip na magbasa ng Noli o El Fili. Natutunan kong gusto ko talaga magsulat kahit sobrang wala na akong ideas. Natutunan kong mag-prove ng Pythagorean Theorem at ang sine, cosine, at tangent ng angle ng special right triangles. Naranasan kong mautal kasi hindi ko mahanap ang mga English words para sa thoughts ko. Naranasan ko ring mag- Science Congress! Natutunan kong magalit sa kung sinu-sino kasi cramming ng kung anu-anong papel. Natutunan kong mas maging maka-Diyos (Amen. :D). Naranasan kong umiyak sa tuwa at maputol ang ilang segundong kaligayahan kasi umiiyak ang best friend ko. Natutunan ko na kahit mga lalaki katulad ni Daddy Gabby ay umiiyak at ni Eman na humahagulol. Nakita kong umiyak ang mga lalaki sa batch. Nakita kong magluha ang isang lalaki at umaming naiiyak siya dahil sa video presentation para sa mga aalis sa batch. Naranasan kong magmukhang ewan sa harap niya. Naranasan kong kiligin ng sobra sa ngiti ni...hahahahaha! Not gonna mention the name. :p Naranasan kong mag-shoot sa sementeryo sa gabi kasama ang Akasya. Naransan kong magmukhang engot sa pagsasabi na ayos lang ako, pero sa tuwing titingin ako sa kanila at marinig ang boses niya, mririndi ako at gustong maglkulong sa Acacia Room. Natutunan ko ring puwersahan na pala ang paglilinis ng room, kasi magbabayad ka ng 100 pesos kapag hindi ka naglinis. Naranasan kong gumawa ng essay tungkol sa Philippine Agriculture na hindi ko masyadong napaghandaan. Naransan ko na ring sagutan ang mga kung anu-anong pangalan ng compounds at maibigay ang sagot within 6 seconds...naransan kong mag-panic dun. At siguro pinaka-memorable, maranasan ang hindi napag-handaang pagkuha ng dugo para sa blood test. Ayos.

At, 'yun na nga. 2nd year=pinakamasaya. 3rd year=pinakamaraming natutunan. pero masaya pa rin. :)

Siguro sa almost 10 months na mawawala ako, marami akong mamimiss. CAnton. Dags. Canteen--Ate Vera, recycled siomai, libreng tubig! McDo. Yung ceiling na kinakausap ko kapag maiiyak na ako. 10 months. Gonna be missing a lot. Pero, ang kailangan lang naman ay maniwala akong magiging worth it ang isang taong pagka-delay. Kakayanin. :)

Aminado akong mawawala 'to. Pero hindi ko madedeny na excited na ako

You might wanna know what I'm feeling

With the upcoming trips to the embassy and finally, Japan, I'm feeling a hell lot right now. Carmella and I would often ask each other: "Anong nararamdaman mo?"

Well, lately I've been asking that question a lot. And with a lot of time to think about it, I've come up with one of the answers.

I'm excited. I can't deny that. It shows. It already shows. Who wouldn't get excited knowing that there's a whole lot of new and different things waiting for you? I am really looking forward to those. And I am undeniably having a countdown.

HOWEVER, I am having quite a hard time absorbing the fact that I am not leaving for just 10 days, but 10 MONTHS. The fact that there won't be a daily dose of my real family and friends for 10 months still hits me hard. There's also a family there. There will be friends there, too. However, those people will be speaking Nihongo and there will be more of people who don't have eyes when they smile. I might belong, y'know. It's just that one big question still remains: HOW?
I know I can do it. I could've torn the contract instead of signing it if I knew I won't be able to survive there. In fact, I know this is what I want. This is what I've been wanting. The problem I see is that I'm attached to everything in this place I we can call home. And I am suffering from separation anxiety. :D

Also, I am confused. I don't know what to do, what to bring, how to pack. We need to buy this and that. Bring this and that. There's a whole lot to do. But I don't know where to start.

Today is Blog Day :)

Therefore, randomness is a must. :)
These quotes came from my books, mostly my favorites. These quotes are underlined, meaning they have great meaning or reflection for me. I just wanna share them since I really did not get any chance to share these to anyone yet. :)

"It's like looking at all the students and wondering who's had their heart broken that day, and how they are able to cope with having three quizzes and a book report on top of that. Or wondering who did the heart breaking. And wondering why. Especially since I know that if they went to another school, the person who had their heart broken would have had their heart broken by somebody else, so why does it have to be so personal?"

Curiosity leads to too much questions...and then you'll know a lot...

"It's much easier not to know things sometimes." (Both quotes from "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky. Not my book. Not even my underlines, but still a really great book. A life-changing one.:D)

"Hope when you've got nothing else, but if you've got anything else, then for Heaven's sake, DO it!" -Old Man
"I had to options. One was easy. One was going to be a son of a bitch."-Jay

Mrs. Harker's lines before Joey's departure:
"What kind of a mom would I be if I couldn't read you after all this time? Did you think I wouldn't know that you were leaving? Or that if I kept on sleeping I'd miss my chance to say goodbye?"
"So my little boy is going to war. Obviously I'm not the first mother in history this has happened to. And from what you're saying, I'm not even the first-- the first me this has happened to. But what makes it worse is that from the moment you walk through that door, you're dead to me. Because you're never coming back. Because if you...if you get killed, rescuing your friends or fighting the enemy or in your In-Between World...I'll never know.
The Spartan mothers used to say, 'Come back with your shield or on it.' But you're on your way, and I'll never see you again, shield or no shield. NO one's ever going to send me a medal or a--what do they do, now that they don't send telegrams?--or a message, saying 'Dear Mrs. Harker, we regret to inform you that Joey died like a...died like a..."
"I spent my whole life hoping I would have kids who would be able to tell the difference between right and wrong. Who, when the decisions, the big decisions, need to be made, would do the right thing. I believe you, Joey. And you're doing the right thing. How could I ever stop you now? Wherever you go. Whatever happens to you. Know this, Joey. I love you, I'll always love you, and I think...I know you're doing the right thing. It just...hurts, that's all."

I guess mothers know best! I like Mrs. Harker. Very understanding. :)
Very touching, indeed. I love you, Nanay. <3
And those were the quotes from "Interworld" by Neil Gaiman and Michael Reaves

From "Jacob Have I Loved" by Katherine Paterson
"Don't tell me no one ever gave you a chance. You don't need anything given to you. You can make your own chances. But first you have to know what you're after, my dear."
"So what's to stop you?"

This book taught me that one can be wonderful in his own ways. Take a risk. Take a chance. Know the aim. Go for it. Before everything's to late. :)

I KNEW IT WAS COMING D:

I AM BACK ON TUMBLR!
FOLLOW ME! FOLLOW ME again!

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Expect that and this blog to be updated during my free time on my adventure. :)
Adventure starts on 24th of May.:)
Gogatsu nijyuyokka. :)

Awit Natin

I randomly made a poem. I was actually startled that I had this urge to write poems lately. This one's titled: "Awit Natin". It's inspired by a former *ehem* love, I guess? Hahahaha... It's NOT really entirely MY story...I need not put my entire story there. The persona is reminiscing his past...and how it turned out with th
e person he loved. But then, the lover went away(physically or mentally) and the persona buried the love and their songs. A year passed and the person was glad to know that he got over everything, but he heard one song that reminded him of everything...and then his longing and waiting started again, thus the ending. :)
Enjoy. :)

Isang awit...
Isang awit na lamang ang nananaig,
Isang awit na lamang ang nagpapakapit
At sa puso ko'y muling nagpapapintig.

Sa isang awit, mundo'y muling nagkakulay;
Wala na ang mga matang matatamlay.
Hindi ka pa rin pala nawalay;
Patuloy kang nagbibigay buhay.

Hindi naman talaga tayo magkabarkada
Ni hindi nga ata tayo magkakilala.
Bakit kaya sa una nating mga tawa
Palagay ko'y matagal ka nang nakakasama?

Wala naman talaga tayong pinagsamahan.
Mukhang ang lahat ay gawa-gawa lang.
Umalis ka rin naman ng tuluyan,
Sana'y matagal ka nang sinukuan.

Sayang ang mga binigay na pagkakataon;
Lagi lang namang naghihintay sa tamang panahon.
Hindi nagbigay ng sagot ng Poon;
Hindi sana ako nagsisisi ngayon.

Isang taon ka ding nawala.
Sa una'y 'di mapaniwala
Na hindi ka na nagdudulot ng luha.
Ang mga awit nati'y isa-isang nabaon sa lupa.

Ngunit may isa pa palang awit,
Na muling nagbalik
Ala-ala nakasabay ng bawat luha at pintig,
Naghihintay...
Nag-aasam...
Naghahanap...

Nasaan ka na?
Tayo'y muling umawit...
Hindi ka na muling pakakawalan.
Lalala...la...la...

I take one step away...(How I look at Korean and Filipino entertainment)

But I find myself coming back to you, Jang Geun Suk.
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[WARNING: THIS POST MAY CONTAIN EXTREME FAN-GIRLING CONTENT. IF NOT INTERESTED, STOP READING NOW]
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It has been a hot boring night and I found myself searching for websites to pass time until 9.30 pm to 10 pm. I tried searching for online games, but I ended up closing every tab since none of the games caught my interest. I even searched 'boredom' using Google. According to Wikipedia, boredom is 'an emotional state experienced during periods lacking activity or when individuals are uninterested in the opportunities surrounding them'.
The word boredom almost became parallel to my name. :c

Well, how about Facebook? Gaiaonline? Nah, didn't work. I couldn't do anything there, either. I can't blog since I don't have anything to blog about. Finally, I found something! But, it;s nonsense. I was 'talking' to an AI through Cleverbot and Jabbawacky(?). I stayed for a while taking my time to figure out how it works. Unfortunately, I got tired of it and ended up knowing nothing.

After staring at the ceiling, I finally had the drive to study Nihongo again. I tried recalling my Hiragana only to find out that I almost forgot 'se', 'te'(which I have been using all along), 're', and how to write 'na' properly(I keep putting a cross on the right side of the character). Anyway, I got it back in my head and moved on to Chapter one of the book. The lessons were about 'Apuru jusu o kudasai'. There were a lot of Western-based words which reminded me to recall Katakana soon. Anyway, I finished with Chapter 1 and left Chapter 2 with my cute ball-headed bookmark. :)

And..again, I did nothing. Until I got an idea to rewatch Hwang Tae Kyung's realization that Go Mi Nam is in love with the star himself. The sweetest thing ever...well, aside from the "I am looking at that star right now; is it okay to like that star" episode and the "I'm going to tell you this everyday so you should listen: I love you" episode.(Come to think of it, WHICH IS THE SWEETEST PART?! ><)
I was searching the YouTube button on my bookmarks toolbar but I ended up clicking the YAB community in LJ. There were a lot of icons on the YAB cast...and I saw JGS's icons...and I fell...AGAIN. For the 13286894623183648304615408125438684624 time,I again found myself fan-girling, stalking, yearning, longing, crushing, and loving JGS. :DDD
(That's why I'm still awake at this time: 11.13 pm, when indeed I was aiming to sleep at 10 pm)

I don't want to see the smile.It makes me go crazy and sing whichever SNSD song coming to my mind. It's waaaaaay too perfect. He is waaaaaay too good to be true. I wanna see him RIGHT NOW and make sure that he is HUMAN and not a robot.( I believe he is human. :)))
He simply dazzles me. He's way too shiny. Maybe he's the REAL Edward Cullen?(Yeah, right.:DD)

It's no just the looks! THERE'S MORE! A LOOOOOT MORE! He can dance well(though he honestly looks gay in my opinion), he can sing well...and, well, he speaks Nihongo. He SEEMS bright; I hope he is. :D

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Oh, and another Korean guy who dazzled me for the 38538658013470157105 time: Lee Dong Hae. :D
I now admit that he obviously looks like someone, especially when he smiles. But, he is really irresistible in his own celebrity way. :))
I remember watching a reality show with the SJ members, Anya and another foreign girl. I watched the whole series in YouTube just to get a glimpse on how LDH lives his celeb life. I was satisfied--or should I say MORE THAN SATISFIED-- to watch those laughs and smiles..and his childishness. I actually find myself smiling at his picture-perfect smiles. :))

Just like what one of his fans said: " He just makes my day brighter, brighter, and brighter."
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I honestly hate admitting this, but I can feel the Korean Wave swallowing me and nearly drowning me to its sea of stars. There are more stars I'm beginning to like and get addicted with. A lot of them are guys(Lee Hyun Jung, Jung Yong Hwa, FT Island), but I am looking at their girl groups and actresses too(like SNSD, Park Shin Hye, etc.)
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I am also getting addicted to the Percy Jackson series by Rick Riordan. And, of course, Logan Lerman who took the role of Percy Jackson in the movie. Oh, and of course I am falling in ove with Annabeth Chase and Percy Jackson love team. :DD
I am falling in love with stories about princesses. Though, not the typical princess-is-saved-by-the-prince story. I like it with twists just like "Goose Girl" by Shannon Hale. I also came back with my childish addiction: Cinderella. I can't believe I still enjoyed Cinderella 3: A Twist in Time. :)
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I feel guilt that I like other country's products more than my country's own products. I honestly think that I should feel happy that Philippine entertainment is trying to follow the entertainment group like the "Pop Girls". They're new, and I bet they're young. Instead of feeling enthusiastic, I honestly smirked at the news I found in the newspaper about them. I feel pity,too. Maybe for them, but the pity I feel right now is for myself. I can't seem to love these Pop Girls and our own telenovelas. Still, I am aware that I have not yet lost my Filipino pride. I like our music, but not all of them. I like Filipino authors like Bob Ong(who wouldn't?). I admit that we're not as good as others, but our entertainment is good in its own way. We may not excel in this entertainment field, but I am aware that we excel in our tourism. We have these great sites that definitely cannot be found in other countries. That's what I'm proud of--that's ONE of the things I'm proud of.
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I am losing connections with my friends! :o

I can't stand it. Though, really, it is okay that there are no messages from them since it is holy week after all.

I'm just starting to get worried...and paranoid that this will happen once I leave.
That's why a part of me says I should just endure this week unconnected with them.

What a find. Chh. *squid face*