I'll cry with Micky...and the rest of wonderful DBSK :))

This video will forever make me cry. Maybe seeing hot guys cry makes girls cry too. Don't you think? Proud- DBSK Live

Jae Joong: Proud...meaning that...proud means we have to be one 'til the end, right?

You've got it right, JJ. :) Keep the faith.

Blog updates..and plans

So, after a month or so on my Tumblr comeback, I've decided to be idle on that site, AGAIN. :)
I don't think I could update that site too much. As Ami said, Tumblr is defeating the real purpose of blogging. Either way, it's still fun there. I still prefer being watched through the traditional weblog, though.

So, being the indecisive girl I've always been, I've recreated my LiveJournal account. Visit me here: twinkle twinkle

I have been planning on making a reaction and a review on Election Day last 10th of May 2010. I have the outline on my mobile phone but I still haven't created the actual entry. I want to learn the experience I had during the elections and how I became a part of it despite the fact that I am a minor. I have a few reasons as to why I haven't created it yet. Mainly it's because I just arrived at my hometown yesterday and I slept most of the day trying to get back for the hours I could've slept during the whole election period. And, I honestly spent the day reading manga if not lurking around outside the house. :))

So, plan 1 is to make an Election Day review. I hope I can make a long one.
2nd is to blog about the adventures I'll be having. I doubt that I can upload it everyday or even every week, but I'll be writing on my journal for sure. i might transfer it on my laptop and upload it whenever I can so I can somehow *talk and share* with my family and friends.

I'm still thinking of making a blog entry about the kira-kira things that I love here. I'm thinking of doing this before leaving--if I am not too busy with packing and repacking. :))

So, I hope everyone will still read the sweet-nothings I'll be posting. :)

MICKY MICKY MICKY

Yoochun,why do you sparkle so much? You're one of the most kira-kira things in this world right now! Where do you get all those light?
Youchun, how could you be so irresistible cute, handsome, excellent, and hot at the same time? Why? Why? WHY?
Tell me, where can I get one like you? Where? When? How?
No, I can't get anyone like you, can I? You're one in a million. At least, show yourself to me.
I realize that this fangirl-ing of mine is much worse than my Geun Suk fangirl-ing. It's too much. Too overwhelming. Its overflowing! :))

I long for nothing but you and your group's voices. I long to get to know you and your group more. I long to see your group as one again. Keep the faith. :D

[Images are obviously not mine(How I wish it's mine though). Full credits to whoever owns this.]

Finding Mr. Right isn't what I actually want. I'm contented with my life right now.

Got this one from Tumblr, again. Very well said and this is very much what I think about love or liking someone at this time.:)

I'm not looking to fall in love. I'm not even necessarily looking for a boyfriend right now. All I really want is to find a nice, good guy I can text late at night, joke around with, and be stupid with. Someone who likes the same music as me, someone I can easily talk to, someone I can be my total self around and not mind at all. A guy I can waste Friday nights with, laugh with, and have fun with. Someone who's not perfect, but understands me, you know? Is that really too much to ask for?

Can you still remember me?

Got this from Tumblr, from feignedprincess' account. I give credit to whoever made this.

Guys, you must know that if a girl loved you then, chances are she still loves you heaps now. She's probably crying herself to sleep every night over you while trying her hardest to keep on a happy face during the day. Most likely, she still thinks about you all the time, everyday. She probably still sits there imagining her future with you in it, then thinks back to the past and shatters. Whenever something happens to her, good or bad, she's most likely thinking of you and wishing that she could tell you all about it. Whenever she hears a song on the radio she'll think of you, not only because the song reminds her of you but also how much of her broken life right now can relate to the song. Whenever she watches a romantic movie or sees a cute couple, hand in hand, she starts to die a little more inside knowing that what used to be is now just a memory. Whenever she thinks of you, she smiles, yet at the same time, she is suffering. Although she may not show it, she is suffering a great deal of pain. She's suffering from remembering those happy moments that she'll always remember but it seemed that you've already forgotten. She's afraid that you might forget her along the way as well. On the outside, she may seem like all smiles and laughter, but what is behind the mask is someone who knows really well how to hide themselves. You have no idea just how much pain she is suffering. She still hurts, because the memories of you and her are not only too hard to forget, she also doesn't want to forget, though sometimes she tries to forget, everything just somehow reminds her of you all over again. She re-reads your old texts and convos because she misses you and what used to be. she misses your hugs, she misses your smiles. She misses you entirely. She loves you. She fell for you, and you just watched her fall. Seriously, if you didn't intend to catch her, then don't lead her on, don't get her hopes up, cause the harder harder she falls for you, the more pain she'll end up having to go through afterwards. Don't tell her you love her if you don't mean it, chances are, she might do something crazy like believe it. For the guys reading this, know that no matter how strong a girl may look on the outside, we all go through some sort of pain on the inside when you leave us. And for the girls reading this, there must've been one boy in particular that was on your mind the whole entire time.

I remember THOSE times :)
I honestly miss you and hope to see you before I go. I know I can survive another year of not seeing you, but every time I think of you my longing grows larger.
There were no hugs nor kisses, but your smile and the connection we had rests inside of me.:)

From Multiply account

At nalunod na 'tong Multiply ko, just like other people.

Last post= acquaintance party.

Grabe. Uso pa ang A(H1N1). Natakot pa ako na mawalan ng Exchange Program. At lumipas lang ang panahon na nakuha ko ang gusto ko.

Sobrang nakakapagod ang third year. Nagpapasalamat na rin ako kasi sa kabila nung mga hirap na yun, ang dami kong natutunan. Natutunan ko ang Lewis Structure. Naranasan kong mawalan ng klase at magliwaliw sa halip na magbasa ng Noli o El Fili. Natutunan kong gusto ko talaga magsulat kahit sobrang wala na akong ideas. Natutunan kong mag-prove ng Pythagorean Theorem at ang sine, cosine, at tangent ng angle ng special right triangles. Naranasan kong mautal kasi hindi ko mahanap ang mga English words para sa thoughts ko. Naranasan ko ring mag- Science Congress! Natutunan kong magalit sa kung sinu-sino kasi cramming ng kung anu-anong papel. Natutunan kong mas maging maka-Diyos (Amen. :D). Naranasan kong umiyak sa tuwa at maputol ang ilang segundong kaligayahan kasi umiiyak ang best friend ko. Natutunan ko na kahit mga lalaki katulad ni Daddy Gabby ay umiiyak at ni Eman na humahagulol. Nakita kong umiyak ang mga lalaki sa batch. Nakita kong magluha ang isang lalaki at umaming naiiyak siya dahil sa video presentation para sa mga aalis sa batch. Naranasan kong magmukhang ewan sa harap niya. Naranasan kong kiligin ng sobra sa ngiti ni...hahahahaha! Not gonna mention the name. :p Naranasan kong mag-shoot sa sementeryo sa gabi kasama ang Akasya. Naransan kong magmukhang engot sa pagsasabi na ayos lang ako, pero sa tuwing titingin ako sa kanila at marinig ang boses niya, mririndi ako at gustong maglkulong sa Acacia Room. Natutunan ko ring puwersahan na pala ang paglilinis ng room, kasi magbabayad ka ng 100 pesos kapag hindi ka naglinis. Naranasan kong gumawa ng essay tungkol sa Philippine Agriculture na hindi ko masyadong napaghandaan. Naransan ko na ring sagutan ang mga kung anu-anong pangalan ng compounds at maibigay ang sagot within 6 seconds...naransan kong mag-panic dun. At siguro pinaka-memorable, maranasan ang hindi napag-handaang pagkuha ng dugo para sa blood test. Ayos.

At, 'yun na nga. 2nd year=pinakamasaya. 3rd year=pinakamaraming natutunan. pero masaya pa rin. :)

Siguro sa almost 10 months na mawawala ako, marami akong mamimiss. CAnton. Dags. Canteen--Ate Vera, recycled siomai, libreng tubig! McDo. Yung ceiling na kinakausap ko kapag maiiyak na ako. 10 months. Gonna be missing a lot. Pero, ang kailangan lang naman ay maniwala akong magiging worth it ang isang taong pagka-delay. Kakayanin. :)

Aminado akong mawawala 'to. Pero hindi ko madedeny na excited na ako

You might wanna know what I'm feeling

With the upcoming trips to the embassy and finally, Japan, I'm feeling a hell lot right now. Carmella and I would often ask each other: "Anong nararamdaman mo?"

Well, lately I've been asking that question a lot. And with a lot of time to think about it, I've come up with one of the answers.

I'm excited. I can't deny that. It shows. It already shows. Who wouldn't get excited knowing that there's a whole lot of new and different things waiting for you? I am really looking forward to those. And I am undeniably having a countdown.

HOWEVER, I am having quite a hard time absorbing the fact that I am not leaving for just 10 days, but 10 MONTHS. The fact that there won't be a daily dose of my real family and friends for 10 months still hits me hard. There's also a family there. There will be friends there, too. However, those people will be speaking Nihongo and there will be more of people who don't have eyes when they smile. I might belong, y'know. It's just that one big question still remains: HOW?
I know I can do it. I could've torn the contract instead of signing it if I knew I won't be able to survive there. In fact, I know this is what I want. This is what I've been wanting. The problem I see is that I'm attached to everything in this place I we can call home. And I am suffering from separation anxiety. :D

Also, I am confused. I don't know what to do, what to bring, how to pack. We need to buy this and that. Bring this and that. There's a whole lot to do. But I don't know where to start.