Somewhere down the road :)

I keep meeting new people everyday. Every one of them is wonderful in their own way. I just realized how blessed I am to know these people.

It was a big change that happened to me. I can’t believe how striking someone can be to change me in less than a day. Before, I kept complaining to myself how difficult it is to build a relationship with others, and slowly, I was even more breaking myself. I never expected meeting people like them, especially that person.

Annaka Sougou. As a whole, you can see that they are a team. You can see the brotherhood they formed in their school. You can see their respect and love for each other. Everyone’s so warm. Everyone’s so fun. They reminded me of my own batchmates. They encouraged me. They treated me like I was one of them. They accepted me. You can see in them that they treasured every moment we had.
We went up a hill, and there I realized a lot of things. I’ve been feeling so warm because of that person. I’ve been feeling homesick because of all of them. I wanted to cry because the atmosphere was so much the same when I’m with my batchmates. When one of them shouted that she loved someone, I wanted to shout too. I wanted to shout that I have forgiven M.M. already and I hope that he will hear it. I wanted to shout that I’ve been a fool for not letting go of the creased past. I wanted to shout that I’ve already found the warmness I’ve been looking for, and that this warmness helped me let go of my tight grip to the past. But, I didn’t shout anything. Instead, I felt a ruckus inside of me. And I can feel a great amount of tears wanting to go out of my existence. I’ve been a fool. And crying would make me look more like a fool. And then, I looked at that person. And with just one smile, I felt better. I looked at the others, and yes, they made sure everything was right. The thick dark clouds enveloping my sky were blown away within just a second.
That person was the one who encouraged me to move forward and see the good in every people. It was like removing a blindfold, and then I could see clearly.
What was that person like?

He was warm. Fun. Encouraging. Kind. Patient. The Student Council President. According to him, he was not a good one. But I saw he encouraged every one of his schoolmates present in that activity. He pushed the good in them (He wanted everyone to introduce themselves in English. He challenged everyone.). He laughed with them. They loved him. And for me, because it was obvious that he was loved, he was a good Student Council President. Not only that, he was a good person because he made me open my eyes a little more. He woke me up. I saw in him a very good person.
No, he wasn’t good-looking. In fact, he looked tired, which took away a bit of his ‘light’. But his good heart made every part of him glow. Everything about him seemed to be glowing. And I was motivated by it. I’ve seen the world like I’ve never had eyes before.

Ever since I met those people, I've been asking myself the purpose of that meeting. I've always had the same answer. It was to change my view of this world I have entered in which I am an alien. But something was missing. So I kept asking again and again. Until now, there’s no answer. Every time I ask myself of that purpose, I just keep longing and longing for them. I am longing to see them. So far, there hasn’t been a day without them on my mind. Though having a lot of load on our mind is difficult, having them on mine doesn’t seem to be a nuisance at all. Actually, my worry is that they might actually slip off my mind. At the same time, I keep worrying that I might be wasting my time thinking about them when they’ve actually forgotten about me already. That possibility hurts. Still, I don’t care. I want them on my mind. Just thinking of them makes me feel warm.

Ever since I met them, every time I meet a new person, I ask myself the purpose of that meeting.

Every time something happens, I ask myself why that happened.
I want to meet more people, overcoming the fear that they might actually the wrong ones to be talking to. Everyone still seems to be different, but their differences are wonderful. I want to meet different kinds of people to see how each and every one of them glows. I want to make an effort on making a conversation with them and find that same warmness I’ve felt.

I often talk to God asking about things like these. I often hope to God that the people I have in my own country is having the time of their life, too. I hope that every person in the world will meet someone in their way that will change them for the better. I hope everyone sees every little wonderful thing in every one and every thing surrounding us despite the difficulties. I hope that I’ll see those people who’ve changed me and be able to tell them how they have made a difference in my life.