Awit Natin

I randomly made a poem. I was actually startled that I had this urge to write poems lately. This one's titled: "Awit Natin". It's inspired by a former *ehem* love, I guess? Hahahaha... It's NOT really entirely MY story...I need not put my entire story there. The persona is reminiscing his past...and how it turned out with th
e person he loved. But then, the lover went away(physically or mentally) and the persona buried the love and their songs. A year passed and the person was glad to know that he got over everything, but he heard one song that reminded him of everything...and then his longing and waiting started again, thus the ending. :)
Enjoy. :)

Isang awit...
Isang awit na lamang ang nananaig,
Isang awit na lamang ang nagpapakapit
At sa puso ko'y muling nagpapapintig.

Sa isang awit, mundo'y muling nagkakulay;
Wala na ang mga matang matatamlay.
Hindi ka pa rin pala nawalay;
Patuloy kang nagbibigay buhay.

Hindi naman talaga tayo magkabarkada
Ni hindi nga ata tayo magkakilala.
Bakit kaya sa una nating mga tawa
Palagay ko'y matagal ka nang nakakasama?

Wala naman talaga tayong pinagsamahan.
Mukhang ang lahat ay gawa-gawa lang.
Umalis ka rin naman ng tuluyan,
Sana'y matagal ka nang sinukuan.

Sayang ang mga binigay na pagkakataon;
Lagi lang namang naghihintay sa tamang panahon.
Hindi nagbigay ng sagot ng Poon;
Hindi sana ako nagsisisi ngayon.

Isang taon ka ding nawala.
Sa una'y 'di mapaniwala
Na hindi ka na nagdudulot ng luha.
Ang mga awit nati'y isa-isang nabaon sa lupa.

Ngunit may isa pa palang awit,
Na muling nagbalik
Ala-ala nakasabay ng bawat luha at pintig,
Naghihintay...
Nag-aasam...
Naghahanap...

Nasaan ka na?
Tayo'y muling umawit...
Hindi ka na muling pakakawalan.
Lalala...la...la...

I take one step away...(How I look at Korean and Filipino entertainment)

But I find myself coming back to you, Jang Geun Suk.
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[WARNING: THIS POST MAY CONTAIN EXTREME FAN-GIRLING CONTENT. IF NOT INTERESTED, STOP READING NOW]
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It has been a hot boring night and I found myself searching for websites to pass time until 9.30 pm to 10 pm. I tried searching for online games, but I ended up closing every tab since none of the games caught my interest. I even searched 'boredom' using Google. According to Wikipedia, boredom is 'an emotional state experienced during periods lacking activity or when individuals are uninterested in the opportunities surrounding them'.
The word boredom almost became parallel to my name. :c

Well, how about Facebook? Gaiaonline? Nah, didn't work. I couldn't do anything there, either. I can't blog since I don't have anything to blog about. Finally, I found something! But, it;s nonsense. I was 'talking' to an AI through Cleverbot and Jabbawacky(?). I stayed for a while taking my time to figure out how it works. Unfortunately, I got tired of it and ended up knowing nothing.

After staring at the ceiling, I finally had the drive to study Nihongo again. I tried recalling my Hiragana only to find out that I almost forgot 'se', 'te'(which I have been using all along), 're', and how to write 'na' properly(I keep putting a cross on the right side of the character). Anyway, I got it back in my head and moved on to Chapter one of the book. The lessons were about 'Apuru jusu o kudasai'. There were a lot of Western-based words which reminded me to recall Katakana soon. Anyway, I finished with Chapter 1 and left Chapter 2 with my cute ball-headed bookmark. :)

And..again, I did nothing. Until I got an idea to rewatch Hwang Tae Kyung's realization that Go Mi Nam is in love with the star himself. The sweetest thing ever...well, aside from the "I am looking at that star right now; is it okay to like that star" episode and the "I'm going to tell you this everyday so you should listen: I love you" episode.(Come to think of it, WHICH IS THE SWEETEST PART?! ><)
I was searching the YouTube button on my bookmarks toolbar but I ended up clicking the YAB community in LJ. There were a lot of icons on the YAB cast...and I saw JGS's icons...and I fell...AGAIN. For the 13286894623183648304615408125438684624 time,I again found myself fan-girling, stalking, yearning, longing, crushing, and loving JGS. :DDD
(That's why I'm still awake at this time: 11.13 pm, when indeed I was aiming to sleep at 10 pm)

I don't want to see the smile.It makes me go crazy and sing whichever SNSD song coming to my mind. It's waaaaaay too perfect. He is waaaaaay too good to be true. I wanna see him RIGHT NOW and make sure that he is HUMAN and not a robot.( I believe he is human. :)))
He simply dazzles me. He's way too shiny. Maybe he's the REAL Edward Cullen?(Yeah, right.:DD)

It's no just the looks! THERE'S MORE! A LOOOOOT MORE! He can dance well(though he honestly looks gay in my opinion), he can sing well...and, well, he speaks Nihongo. He SEEMS bright; I hope he is. :D

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Oh, and another Korean guy who dazzled me for the 38538658013470157105 time: Lee Dong Hae. :D
I now admit that he obviously looks like someone, especially when he smiles. But, he is really irresistible in his own celebrity way. :))
I remember watching a reality show with the SJ members, Anya and another foreign girl. I watched the whole series in YouTube just to get a glimpse on how LDH lives his celeb life. I was satisfied--or should I say MORE THAN SATISFIED-- to watch those laughs and smiles..and his childishness. I actually find myself smiling at his picture-perfect smiles. :))

Just like what one of his fans said: " He just makes my day brighter, brighter, and brighter."
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I honestly hate admitting this, but I can feel the Korean Wave swallowing me and nearly drowning me to its sea of stars. There are more stars I'm beginning to like and get addicted with. A lot of them are guys(Lee Hyun Jung, Jung Yong Hwa, FT Island), but I am looking at their girl groups and actresses too(like SNSD, Park Shin Hye, etc.)
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I am also getting addicted to the Percy Jackson series by Rick Riordan. And, of course, Logan Lerman who took the role of Percy Jackson in the movie. Oh, and of course I am falling in ove with Annabeth Chase and Percy Jackson love team. :DD
I am falling in love with stories about princesses. Though, not the typical princess-is-saved-by-the-prince story. I like it with twists just like "Goose Girl" by Shannon Hale. I also came back with my childish addiction: Cinderella. I can't believe I still enjoyed Cinderella 3: A Twist in Time. :)
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I feel guilt that I like other country's products more than my country's own products. I honestly think that I should feel happy that Philippine entertainment is trying to follow the entertainment group like the "Pop Girls". They're new, and I bet they're young. Instead of feeling enthusiastic, I honestly smirked at the news I found in the newspaper about them. I feel pity,too. Maybe for them, but the pity I feel right now is for myself. I can't seem to love these Pop Girls and our own telenovelas. Still, I am aware that I have not yet lost my Filipino pride. I like our music, but not all of them. I like Filipino authors like Bob Ong(who wouldn't?). I admit that we're not as good as others, but our entertainment is good in its own way. We may not excel in this entertainment field, but I am aware that we excel in our tourism. We have these great sites that definitely cannot be found in other countries. That's what I'm proud of--that's ONE of the things I'm proud of.
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I am losing connections with my friends! :o

I can't stand it. Though, really, it is okay that there are no messages from them since it is holy week after all.

I'm just starting to get worried...and paranoid that this will happen once I leave.
That's why a part of me says I should just endure this week unconnected with them.

What a find. Chh. *squid face*

You're breaking my broken heart. How could you?

How could a Korean drama make my heart ache so much? How could a 16-episode K-drama, "You're Beautiful", touch every little atom in me?

What made me love you?

Answer me. :c

[Can't write too much. I AM WATCHING RIGHT NOW. I can't understand what they're saying except for the "Hyungnim" parts. :)) LAST ONE EPISODE! Woot! Star necklace! <3]

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like '' Maybe we should be just friends '' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”- Neil Gaiman

YOU are the reason why I acted like a total illiterate person. I can't write anything properly at that time.
YOU, my Prince, are the reason why I am afraid to fall in love again. I cannot face facts that I am liking someone.
YOU are the reason for those tears. No matter how much they tell me you're not worthy of them, I still cried countless tears for you.
Yes, it rips me apart. It still will until I leave this place and forget your ugly unpresentable face.
It still rips me apart...slowly...
slowly...
slowly...
more than YOU could imagine.

YOU are the only person I would like to erase.

Oh, do YOU want company?
Do YOU want to be with someone?

Fine, I'll grant that.

Evaporate! And be one of those vapors! When YOUu've done that, I'll FINALLY LOVE THE RAIN. It means YOU're falling...falling...falling.
And YOU can't move on.

YOU're life is a cycle. YOU just fall. Good for me.

And *BOOM!*

Tomorrow will be the last day of exams!
Hello, freeeeeeeeeeedooooooooooom! :D
That's why I'm starting the countdown, again.
Approximately 14 hours, everything will be over. Well, there will be a few(ONE, actually) requirements, but that won't measure to the pains we've been willing to let go of. Hahaha!
14 hours.

Everything will be over...that's why I think I should be studying. :))

FOR THE LAST TIME, I SHOULD STUDY!
[hey,you. you should do the same too.]

See ya tomorra, Blogspot. :D

The Lady, the Prince, and the Princess

I seem to notice that some things start with a pitiful beginning and end with a happily ever after; some, however unfortunate, start with a very happy beginning, but end with shattered hopes and dreams.

A familiar story:
One day, A Prince, so full of himself, got his heart broken. For years, he waited for the Princess to come back and save him from the depths of darkness. Unfortunately, she did not come, and worst: they hated each other. The Prince decided to go to a family friend and asked their daughter to come with him to different places. The Prince knew the Lady; they trusted each other. The Lady went with the Prince and decided that through her own little ways make the Prince happy again.
The Prince and the Lady embarked on their journey. The Lady realized how much the Prince could make her happy. But, she did not know if she was enough to do the same for him. Still, she did her best and enjoyed the times with the noble.
Not long, the Princess came back. She saw the Lady and immediately asked for forgiveness to His Highness. The Prince was very glad, and again, they became happy. Little did the Lady know that she has already fallen for the Prince. So, she decided to stay away for the two's sake. Luckily, the Prince still did not forget about the Lady. The Prince still took him to places. And, on their last journey together, the Prince knew that the Lady was going back and she was leaving the country to study and see her relatives. The two did not know that the Princess followed them. During the dance, the Prince saw the Princess. He endured being with just the Lady, but the Lady insisted that He should find the Princess and dance with her. The Prince did so while the Lady kept her hopes high that he will come back for her. The Prince left two promises, too. The Lady trusted him and waited for the night to finish.
Hours passed and the dance has stopped. One by one, everyone bid goodbye and good night. The Lady still waited on the balcony. And it was just then that the Prince came back. He asked for the Lady's forgiveness and explained everything. However painful it was, the Lady still accepted the apology but carried foul feelings for the Princess and the Prince.
That night, the Lady went her own way and made herself happy for her own goodness.She left nothing for the Prince but hopes that he has learned something from what he did.




Sounds familiar?
AMEN. :D